GOD & Family
"God provided something better for us." Hebrews 11:40
"If perfect is what you're searching for then just stay the same."
Bruno Mars
Saying goodbye is getting harder for me to do. A week ago it wasn’t really such a big deal. Yes, at times it would hit me, but not for long. However, today something happened that really made me realize that this is happening. It’s real. It’s not a dream. Tomorrow I will be leaving to the Philippines for college for four years. It’s a bittersweet moment. Now I’m really feeling it. I get sad at times, but I don’t want to be sad because I know that I’ll be back.
I can’t believe I want to go back to school.I feel like I didn’t have enough time to see everyone for maybe the last time. There is definitely someone I’d like to see for one last time. This person surprisingly made a big impact in my life. Anything that person said made me see a lot of things differently. After graduation, I was hoping to see that person. That night I thought maybe I’d forget about it and move on, but then the next day we went back to school and the feeling came back. I was hoping to see that person there, but I know it was impossible. And til now I still hope to see him one last time.
I’d like to say thank you to you because you were always so nice and very sweet and because of you I changed in a lot of ways. I will always rememeber what you told me, thank you
Damn, graduation is over, I’m officially a senior graduate and I have four more days til i leave and I still don’t feel it. What the hell is wrong with me. I say I don’t want to cry, but I at least want to have that sad feeling you get when you leave your friends and family behind. Somehow it’s not happening. I just don’t want to explode with tears in front of everyone, It’s not my kind of thing even though I know myself that I am extremely sensitive with things like these. I did get sad after the ceremony at the thought of not seeing my friends for a very long time or maybe never. I may not have that many friends, but with each and everyone that I did get close to, I cherish those friendship and will never forget their faces and the times we shared. I’d like to know that someday after highschool or college that we’ll still hang out or see each other and talk about the events that have happened in our lives. I’m afraid that it might not happen that way. Sure, I’d like to meet new people, but I’d like to say “oh yeah, I’ve know her since highschool/middle school.” There is just that precious bond with that person. That person will then have known how you were when your were a child, then a teenager and finally an adult. Well, uhmmm hat feeling is hitting me right now.
It’s so funny how easy you can like someone and find almost everything about them attractive, but one thing that you don’t like completely changes everything. It seems that everything they do disgust you. I’m so glad I found out, otherwise I would have been making a fool of myself for “trying” to tell the truth. Well, all I can say is, ” WHAT A MANSLUT !”.
(Source: bookmania, via hello-2myself)
The view from Castaway. It was just the perfect everything that night. I can’t even explain. It was a beautiful night, one I’ll never forget.
Time is running out for me and I know well enough that it’s really the best time to confess because i won’t see him after four years or probably never, but I’m super scared of the outcome. I just want to say it just to get it off my chest, but I’m such a wimp to take action, I don’t want to regret this before I graduate. At least if I do this, I can say I did something I have never done before. Goodness, why do I have to be such a little girl.
